Mental Health study with Patrick Teahan LICSW, "6 Lies From Childhood Trauma 2022". Going through his video these are the parts of each that resonated with me when I was a child.
#5 Good Things won't last
- living in constant fear of being fired from my job
- use to worry things I bought would look worn from using them
- making friends but not engaging with them for fear of loosing them
- fear things are taken from me
These still worry me to this day but not nearly to the insanity level they use to. These fears were brought on by many things that occurred when I was younger. Though I was an only child but my family and friends at the time did not respect my belongings. At home chaos would erupt out of nowhere from one or both of my parents. My mother would have emotional outbreaks on me, later found out she was going through menopause the same time I hit puberty. Parents would take my stuff away for things I had not done and even killed one of my cats. My father always got everything he wanted no matter what. My uncle passed away, he was a better father to me in my opinion, it was very traumatic for me but my parents did nothing to help me heal.
Though these things still way heavy on me, I know that good things last as long as we want them to. Its how we look at things that makes a difference.
I encourage everyone that grew up in a toxic environment to seek help. Whether that is with a professional, a friend or a psychologist on YouTube.We all have the ability to feel whole again, one step at a time.
Blessed Be
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