Witch Belle

   Like any job, at one point there will come a time that your body and brain turn on auto pilot, going through the day without your consciousness being present. For a short period now I have caught myself going into auto pilot both on and off the clock. As if my mind has become so overwhelmed with all the stresses of the world that it needs some down time that I have been unable to find or not enough of it to complete the reboot process. Due to this my goals have changed to survival/reactive instead of accomplishing/proactive. A change must be made. My New Goals: make more of an effort to dress myself with different aesthetics instead of the usual "work-from-home" leggings and t-shirt. add exercising of any capacity to my routine. step outside at least every other day, despite having to have unwanted conversations with neighbors. add something to look forward to for my first break at work. I already look forward to enjoying a few minutes with my love on my lunch and having h...

   These two words confuse me more times then I could ever count. Is there a difference or are they the same thing? They are different in multiple ways. We've all said one in place of the other at one time or another. "I'm jealous of her outfit/skin/car/dog/pool/jewelry.""I envy their love/relationship/friendship." These two statements are incorrectly worded. Considering it took three years for me to correct my usage of the words "ate" and "eaten," it is possible. With the help of the love of my life I will continue to make progress. I encourage him to correct me so I can become better with my language.     Once upon a time, I use to be fantastic at English and many other things. Then I ignored my body telling me its' health was bad till it placed me in the hospital for four days. In that time frame, the doctors, nurses and techs believed I had had about 50 mini brain seizures. Had to re-learn EVERYTHING. How to use the bathroom, get ...

   Multiple months have passed now and truth be told my parents have gotten better as human beings. They have given me my space by not showing up unannounced and they almost never contact me first. My parents have begun buying and donating clothes and other items to the church they attend. They have been giving away their unused vehicles to a charity organization. Both have verbally expressed their acceptance of my choices. Although I still know they have their private feelings behind our backs, they treat me as an adult with my own beliefs to my face. That is a huge step for them.     They have now seen my YouTube Channel and I'm sure from that they will eventually find this blog. To that end I have a message for them.    Dear Parents,    Should you find your way to this public blog that I use to help any others that may have lived a similar existence to mine, know that I am voicing who I have always been. In your household, the feeling of y...